January 2011
53 posts
After spending a night in hospital, after multiple panic attacks. After a nasty phone call, after many many tears, I am finally at home. Well and truly medicated. I have 60mg of Duloxetine to take every day (uppers) and some Valium for when the attacks come. I will start going back to blonde tomorrow, and then the next day I will go back to work full time. Fuck you and fuck your pathetic life.
It’s all over for good. “The ultimate end” as he says. I haven’t gotten out of bed all day and he feels no emotion and I feel sick.
Tumblr, help me here.
tiniestteddyofthemall:
http://www.facebook.com/pages/RIP-To-All-The-Victims-Of-The-Toowoomba-Floods/184828641536219?v=wall
This facebook page has been blatantly abusing Everyone affected by the Brisbane floods. If you could kindly report the page, or by any chance pass it on to someone who could get the ip address of this person and reveal to the public, it would be greatly appreciated.
Reblog if you have fucked one of your followers.
Within you I lose myself... Without you I find...
3 job interviews in the next two days to see if i can get a better job then the boring one I’ve already acquired. One at 9.30am tomorrow and then one at 11.00am so hopefully they don’t clash, and then one wednesday at 2pm argh!
Well i’d just like to put this out there. My life is fucked pretty much. I need to move out. But i know if i go where i’d like to go and can go, it will fuck things up even more, even though I spend a lot of nights there lately anyway. It’s all so confusing. I can’t please anyone, It’s impossible.
1,111 followers. Which i noticed at 11:11 pm.
So I pull the switch, the switch, the switch inside my head. And I see black, black, green,and brown, brown, brown and blue, yellow, violets, red. And suddenly a light appears inside my brain And I think of my ways, I think of my days and know that I have changed. If the color’s (bad?) No need to be sad. It really ain’t that bad. If the color’s (bad?) No need to be sad....
“The awkward moment when my head explodes from not being able to take it anymore...”
People need to stop giving me giftcards because...
First impressions
So during the week stay with my boy he took me over to his mates house ( his old house mates who he lived with after we broke up two years ago ). So we get there and i watch him and his mate play xbox for a while, and then they decided to grab some weed. After a couple of joints.. they suggested we try a can bong because nobody had a proper one with them. And so after i watched the boys try it,...
Dragons blood incense. I honestly Could not explain the memories connected with this smell. But it’s okay now because they don’t have to be bad memories anymore because we’re okay now and I can enjoy it once more.
I’m awake wondering if anybody could ever understand this.
I spent nearly the last week with him, and for that i rightfully claimed the right bedside table which used to by mine so long ago, and that makes me so simply happy. Sleeping next to him feels like home. They say home is where the heart is, and my heart has always been with him.
A good start to 2011, and hopefully this isn’t as temporary as I thought it would first be because as fucked up...
